I *expletive* hate quants….

Thousands of years ago, before the Iphone, before the Romans, back in a time where you had to hunt for your own food and marry your cousin because there was nobody else around, mankind worshiped the sun. It gave us light to help us in our day, went to bed so we could too, it brought nutrients to the things around us so we could use them as food, it was the bringer of life to the planet. We worshiped our sun gods with might and gusto and were at their complete mercy. We would sacrifice each other in the hope of appeasing them so we could have a good harvest so we could continue to survive and prosper. But as mankind progressed, so did our demands from our gods. We became more inquisitive and began asking questions for which our sun gods could not answer, because they could not talk. Our gods were unable to fulfill our demands so we got new ones.

We moved to ones that could talk to us, the idea of an all powerful sentient being like ourselves who could give us a purpose and some perspective on this world that we knew little about, but desperate to learn. With this brought the constructed formulation of morality, direction and social order. We believed that these gods were the all powerful bringer of life and must do whatever we can to appease them. But after thousands of years and even more thousands of gods, mankind is at a changing point once again. Once again we have progressed to stage where our gods are not meeting our demands and we are asking questions for which they can not answer. Our strive for knowledge has brought us to an understanding of the universe to the point where our gods are out of fashion and we go searching for the answers ourselves in the form of science. Now our religious beliefs are coming full circle, and we begin to realise that we had it right in the first place. The sun was the all powerful bringer of life to the planet, and it was our own selfish desires that had driven us away from that.

We wanted more. We wanted to feel more important. We wanted not to be afraid, so we followed something that said it had the answers, when realistically it didn’t. It made us feel good, but it was all false hope. This cost us dearly, we lost some good men along the way, Galileo for example, and kept tripping ourselves up on our run forward. For all the progress and understanding we have achieved, how could we expect ourselves to understand the meaning of life when we couldn’t understand something as simple as what creates it in the first place. We were going in the wrong direction.

There is a quote in history that I feel has reflected some of the most dangerous developments in our existence. It was by Eamon DeValera on the Catholic church in Ireland, and was that “the majority have no right to be wrong”. I learned that quote in 6th year History, and is something that has stuck with me since. It’s a dangerous philosophy to believe in because if going by our understanding of the sun as a species as one example, the majority have every right to be wrong. Maybe it’s because we are the most dominant creature on the planet that we are so egocentric, but mankind has a sense of infallibility to what we know and realistically have always felt that majority has no right to be wrong.

But to go against all our hopes and beliefs, we are not that knowing, we are not always right, and we are not all that important. We are but specs on a rock floating through space in a universe that was not created to serve us. What we want and what is right in this life can be two contradictory things, and no matter how easy or comforting its is, living in that blissful place of ignorance will hold mankind back again. The late Carl Sagan expressed it perfectly when he said that “the universe is not required to be in perfect harmony with human ambition” and that “it is far better to grasp the universe as it really is than to persist in delusion, however satisfying and reassuring”.

Essentially, there are things in this life which we hate, but because we disagree with them doesn’t make them wrong. We are not the deciders of facts in this universe, we must merely be reactive to them. This sometimes means doing the things which we hate, but unfortunately they must be done.And even though I have spent the guts of the last hour writing this, analyzing mankind’s history and belittling every religion that ever existed, to be honest it all boils down to this one key development…..

This whole thing has just been one long complicated way of motivating myself to do a horrible quantitative research project for college.

Fuck you universe, I don’t want to do it….

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